The Lord Works In Mysterious Ways….

……His wonders to perform. Or something like that. I’ve only got about an hour and a half till lights-out, so I’ll have to make this relatively quick. Tonight, it feels as though a heavy burden has been lifted from my shoulders, blunting the sting of yet another disappointment. I’ll explain that in a minute. AsContinue reading “The Lord Works In Mysterious Ways….”

Just Call Me “Stumblebutt”

To say that I loathe passing medications would be the understatement of the year. First of all, being able to concentrate on the pass itself is impossible in the face of almost constant interruptions, and with my challenges in that arena I’m always nervous. Secondly, the population changes from weekend to weekend so I neverContinue reading “Just Call Me “Stumblebutt””

You’ve Come A Long Way, Baby!

It’s amazing what a difference a week makes. This time last week, I was agitated, angry, anxious, and being an ass. I’d tried tweaking one of my meds—the one I learned very quickly is the glue that holds me together—with near-disastrous results. So I went back on what has become my normal dose, and nowContinue reading “You’ve Come A Long Way, Baby!”

Is There Life Out There?

Seriously, I’m asking: what can I do besides nursing? Among the many other changes wrought by this long, weird summer is the realization that I can’t do what I used to do. I don’t know if it’s because my bipolar has finally altered my brain to the point that it no longer functions as well as itContinue reading “Is There Life Out There?”

The Golden Turd Syndrome

My friend Jesse just got back from his appointment with my psychiatrist this afternoon (and I’m telling you, I’d better start getting some discounts for all the business I’m sending him!) with a new diagnosis of “golden turd syndrome”. I somehow doubt this one’s in the DSM, but it ought to be: it’s when yourContinue reading “The Golden Turd Syndrome”

The Homecoming and Other Things

After five long years without seeing my 27-year-old daughter, she is finally home today on a Red Cross mercy mission. This girl is my tumbling tumbleweed, my will-o’-the-wisp, the one with a sense of adventure who left home for good a month after high school graduation, and has been back only three times since. She joined theContinue reading “The Homecoming and Other Things”

Kickin’ Butt and Takin’ Names

Ahh, sweet are the uses of a little hypomania…….I just got done with eight hours’ worth of work in only six, and with only a minimum of assistance. I’ve been orienting to the float nurse position at my facility for a whole two days, and completed only parts of two admissions. (For those not inContinue reading “Kickin’ Butt and Takin’ Names”