That’s not a mistake—it’s shorthand for Social Security Disability Insurance. There’s a big difference between SSDI and SSDD (Same Shit, Different Day). Then again, there might not be. I just got done filling out about 20 pages of information about my functional status and all the jobs I’ve held over the past 15 years. They didn’tContinue reading “SSDI”
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Landing On My Feet
As discouraged as I am about my job these days, I realized something yesterday as I was trying to find my way back home after getting lost in Fungus Corners, Oregon for the third time this week: I have once again achieved a relative state of normality. This is no small feat in the face of circumstances that wouldContinue reading “Landing On My Feet”
ARRRGGGHHH!!
Ah……I feel better now. Nothing like a little primal scream therapy to get rid of some frustration. Make that a LOT of frustration. I have never in my life sucked so badly at a job (with the possible exception of telephone solicitation, a position I held some thirty years ago…..for about four hours). I’ve beenContinue reading “ARRRGGGHHH!!”
Pep Talk
This has been a great long weekend for me, with lots of good food, fun, and family, along with some wisdom from my favorite psychiatrist and a beautiful Easter Mass to feed my soul. The weather has been good for the most part, and watching my grandsons frolic on the front lawn is always a treat.Continue reading “Pep Talk”
Nobody Knows (The Trouble I’ve Seen)
Oh man, and Job thought he had troubles……. The final day of survey was a disaster. My ego was already pretty bruised from the beating it had been taking all week, and it took almost every bit of courage I own just to push myself out the door this morning. The trainer who came with me today isn’t quiteContinue reading “Nobody Knows (The Trouble I’ve Seen)”
The End Is Near
Well, boys and girls, it looks like I’m going to wash out of my training program after all. It wasn’t put exactly that way by my trainer this afternoon, but I had to be honest with her about the reasons why I’m struggling so badly and she acknowledged that they’re pretty much incompatible with the work. The truthContinue reading “The End Is Near”
Stress Factor
I’m now two weeks into what seems to be a solid recovery. I feel like myself again, warts and all, and as silly as it must sound to anyone who doesn’t deal with a mental illness, that would ordinarily be cause for celebration. The weather is warm and lovely, but there’s no hint of mania; I’mContinue reading “Stress Factor”
Stupid Is As Stupid Does
I have long prided myself on the fact that no one, ever in the history of my life, has called me a dumbass. A smartass, yes; a pain in the ass, definitely. But never a dumbass……until now. And the one who thinks I’m a dumbass is ME. Why? Because of the mush my mind has turned intoContinue reading “Stupid Is As Stupid Does”
I’m Wet. I’m Tired. I’m Pissed. Deal With It.
I think I understand now why people commit suicide over financial issues. No, I don’t have any ideas along that line, but after being hounded for money so much recently—and knowing that we will NEVER escape this mountain of debt—I am in complete sympathy with those who feel that only death will solve their problems. Today,Continue reading “I’m Wet. I’m Tired. I’m Pissed. Deal With It.”
I Don’t Go Crazy, I AM Crazy. I Just Go Normal From Time to Time.
That’s what a lot of life is about, anyway. I figured it out on my way home from work. It’s all about appearances: you can be having the most horrid thoughts imaginable, walking around thinking “oh my God, I SUCK”, and yet nobody sees what goes on behind your eyes. All they see is another human being,Continue reading “I Don’t Go Crazy, I AM Crazy. I Just Go Normal From Time to Time.”
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