Shrink Wrapped, Redux

I have a sneaking suspicious that Dr. Awesomesauce reads this blog once in a while. I mean, I didn’t even get the chance to bring up cutting back on the Zyprexa at our session this morning. When the topic turned to meds, he shook his finger sternly at me and said “Stay on your meds asContinue reading “Shrink Wrapped, Redux”

Peace And Quiet

…..are definitely NOT on the agenda for this weekend. My daughter, son-in-law, and the grands are coming for a barbecue tonight, and Will’s sister from Seattle arrives later this evening and will be here till Sunday. Then the two of them are going to the air museum tomorrow for an all-day event, while I’ll be visiting my ownContinue reading “Peace And Quiet”

Ten Feet Tall and Bulletproof

Did I mention that I miss hypomania? Well, I do. There. I admit it. I hope you’re satisfied. Here I am, sitting here in front of my computer screen being all normal and everything, when what I want in my heart of hearts is a good burst of high energy. There is SO much thatContinue reading “Ten Feet Tall and Bulletproof”

The Absence of “WOW”

I don’t want to seem ungrateful or anything, but what I could really use right now is a good dose of hypomania. Yes, I know it’s ridiculous. Yes, I know it’s stupid, especially after everything I’ve gone through to get to what I consider to be relative stability (although Dr. Awesomesauce argued that point with me theContinue reading “The Absence of “WOW””

Missing (Hypo)Mania

Yeah, I admit it. After all, there’s a great big beautiful spring out there, with warming temperatures and even more sunshine to come later this week…..the intoxicating aromas of flowers floating on the soft breeze…..the promise of summer just around the corner. This is one of my favorite times of year, when it’s not TOO hotContinue reading “Missing (Hypo)Mania”

Five Good Days

Yep, I’m on a roll. I’ve had five golden days of feeling blessedly normal, and believe me, that’s a miracle considering how rough the past couple of months have been. Two weeks ago I was talking crazy about packing up Will and the pets and lighting out for parts unknown; today I was able to write a professional- grade report onContinue reading “Five Good Days”

Green Lights and Blue Skies

You know it’s gonna be a good day when a doctor tells you that you don’t need his services. Today was the day Will and I have been dreading for weeks: the appointment with the radiation oncologist. We were afraid this meant that the cancer was spreading to his bones and that we would have to undertakeContinue reading “Green Lights and Blue Skies”

I Know This Sounds Weird, But…..

…..this is the most well-balanced I have ever been in my life. I’m not kidding. My moods are stable to the point that I don’t really have any. I have enough energy to do what I want, and I feel great, but there’s no fever in it like there is with hypo/mania; even when IContinue reading “I Know This Sounds Weird, But…..”