This Post Has No Purpose

Was awake waaay too late into the night last night with racing thoughts and no real idea why. But I suspect it was the fact that a day I’d been looking forward to was a complete bust: first it was the canceled p-doc appointment, and then my favorite football team went on to lose their game inContinue reading “This Post Has No Purpose”

Between “Blah” and “Yee-HAW!!”

This mild mixed episode has got to go. It’s not anything I can’t stand. It’s not at all like those horrendous mixed moods I have every now and again that make me crazier than a shit-house rat. This is just a generalized weirdness where bouncy and amused alternates with down and irritable, and I’m sick to death of it. IContinue reading “Between “Blah” and “Yee-HAW!!””

The Edge of Night

I can’t say I’m surprised, being worried sick about finances and it being almost summer, but late nights are getting to be a problem for me again. I’m still going to bed at a regular time (although I do push it to the limit—11:30 PM—almost every night). It’s just that my meds aren’t kicking in until afterContinue reading “The Edge of Night”

Missing (Hypo)Mania

Yeah, I admit it. After all, there’s a great big beautiful spring out there, with warming temperatures and even more sunshine to come later this week…..the intoxicating aromas of flowers floating on the soft breeze…..the promise of summer just around the corner. This is one of my favorite times of year, when it’s not TOO hotContinue reading “Missing (Hypo)Mania”

Beware The Ides of March

It’s taken a long time, but I’ve finally come to see the seasonal pattern of my mood swings in its full spectrum. I’ve always gotten depressed in the winter, and in recent years I’ve come to expect that mania will visit at least once during the summer and early fall. And now, thanks to an unusual flash of insight, I justContinue reading “Beware The Ides of March”

The Warm Breath of Spring

…..well, at least we had a day of it. Yesterday it was 61 degrees and the sun was peeking out between the clouds, and all of a sudden it felt like the promise of new beginnings was about to burst forth. Or some such cliché. But whatever it was, after the long, cold, evil winter we’ve had,Continue reading “The Warm Breath of Spring”