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Valentine’s Day: The Struggle Is Real

I’ve never really liked Valentine’s Day. I’ve long suspected that it’s a fake holiday invented to fatten the wallets of the CEOs of the chocolate and florist industries, so I didn’t make a big deal out of it. Will, on the other hand, always bought me a card and roses, and in good years we went out forContinue reading “Valentine’s Day: The Struggle Is Real”

Fear Factor

Did I ever tell you that I’m afraid of everything? Pantophobia is its formal name, which makes me feel a little better since I know I’m not the only person on earth who experiences a deep and abiding fear of life, particularly its more unpleasant aspects. I’m serious. I’m afraid of spiders. I’m afraid ofContinue reading “Fear Factor”

Off To The Races

I hate it when I can’t get my thoughts to congeal, as evidenced by my inability to pay attention in church this morning or concentrate on writing for the past couple of days. I’m fine otherwise, but there’s this constant flow of ideas which slip away just as quickly as I become aware of them…..although every now andContinue reading “Off To The Races”

The Things We Do For Love

Once upon a time, in a galaxy far, far away, I was driving home from work when I slid on a patch of black ice and lost control of the car. Although I didn’t wreck it, the out-of-control feeling I felt as it spun sickeningly was so terrifying, I decided on the spot that I would never again drive in freezing conditions. TwoContinue reading “The Things We Do For Love”

Something To Talk About

Today was the day for what’s turning out to be a monthly occasion, namely, meeting my sister Louise at Dr. A’s office for a pre-appointment visit. She has to take a van ride all the way from her assisted-living facility 50 miles away, which leaves her about 45 minutes to cool her heels in theContinue reading “Something To Talk About”

Sister Act

It was so good to see her this morning, looking slim and trim in a black top and brown slacks. She’d just finished her appointment with Dr. Awesomesauce, and we all went through our dog-and-pony show where he pretends not to know that we’re sisters, then introduces himself to me with a wink and shakes myContinue reading “Sister Act”

Picking Up the Pieces

So I’ve been doing a lot of ruminating over the events of the other night, and I’ve come to the conclusion that I really screwed the pooch on this one. It’s hitting me that I violated abstinence (as it’s called in 12-step circles) after almost TWENTY-TWO YEARS. And all over something as stupid as beingContinue reading “Picking Up the Pieces”

The Betrayal

And THEN, just when I think it’s safe to say that I’m really, truly well in mind and body, along comes a sucker punch that just knocked me into the middle of next week. You think you can trust people pretty well after being around them for a few decades. Well, I’m here to tellContinue reading “The Betrayal”