Three Things People With Bipolar Don’t Want You to Know

Just when I thought I was in a solid remission… Things have been rather tense in my world recently, so naturally I’m stressed out and anxious. Usually anxiety is a feature of depression for me, but I’m not depressed at all. Just…antsy. Like something’s coming down the pike that I know I’m not going toContinue reading “Three Things People With Bipolar Don’t Want You to Know”

Going Inpatient: One Year Later

I will never again be able to think about Halloween without remembering where I was on October 31st, 2014. I’d written a short post here saying that I’d hit bottom and was going to the hospital, then after my psych eval I sat in the “safe room” in the ER for six looooong hours waitingContinue reading “Going Inpatient: One Year Later”

Back From The Brink

And just as quickly as my mood plunged, it’s come back up. Today I felt almost normal, despite the fact that nothing has changed for the better (except, perhaps, for our spectacular 97-degree weather…..I love the heat) and we’re going to lose our cable/Internet by Monday. There just isn’t enough money to keep all three utilitiesContinue reading “Back From The Brink”

Before & After

This was life before Zyprexa…… ……and here’s life since Zyprexa. Looks different, doesn’t it? This is the mood chart from Psych Central that I use daily in addition to Optimism Online. I do this one because I visit the site daily anyway, and sometimes it picks up the subtler changes that Optimism doesn’t. But no matter which chartContinue reading “Before & After”

What Recovery Looks Like (I Think)

If you’ve been following bpnurse for the past few weeks, you know that I’ve just started a job that is already challenging me to think WAY outside the box. The learning curve is steep and I’m having to unlearn a lot of what I picked up working in long-term care for so many years. Even the simplest things canContinue reading “What Recovery Looks Like (I Think)”

The Morning After The Night Before

~ yawn~ It’s Friday, November 1, and I feel like something the dog found under the house. All that fresh air, exercise, and Halloween candy was great, but it really kicked my butt. Throw in a double whammy of hardcore psych meds, and I want to sleep until Christmas. But they’re doing their job: the fever of mania has broken and I’mContinue reading “The Morning After The Night Before”