Thanksgiving may still be three weeks away, but lately I’ve been thinking a lot about how much I have to be grateful for. Life hasn’t always been awesome to me, especially not in the past five years or so; still, I have been blessed with many good things. Here are some of them. First andContinue reading “An Attitude of Gratitude”
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A Little Bit of Everything
Sorry it’s been almost a month since my last blog entry, but lately several topics have crowded my brain and I can’t decide which one to write about. So I’m just going to cram all of them in this one and hopefully it’ll make sense. I think the most important thing is the subtle change inContinue reading “A Little Bit of Everything”
It’s A Mystery
…..the fact that I haven’t received a bill from Dr. Awesomesauce’s office since last fall. I’m afraid to ask. I don’t want to jinx myself. But with the exception of the months I had insurance—and not even then—I haven’t been asked for co-pays, nor have I seen anything from the mental health clinic’s business office as to howContinue reading “It’s A Mystery”
The High Cost of Mental Illness
I was just visiting my favorite nursing website this evening where a fellow member posted about the possibility of losing her license for using narcotics at work. She’s apparently had addiction issues for years but had never been caught, and when she finally was, it was reported to her state board of nursing. Now she wasContinue reading “The High Cost of Mental Illness”
Promises In The Dark
I’ve backslid quite a bit today. Things are coming to a head in my life and I am greatly afraid of where it’s headed. It seems to be in a free-fall that I cannot stop; I’m in a place where life just keeps getting worse, and I keep losing more and more. Maybe not allContinue reading “Promises In The Dark”
Rock, Paper, Scissors
And now, back to life in the real world where I’m still out of work, there are few suitable prospects, and I’m playing Rock, Paper, Scissors with the utility bills to try and figure out which is going to suck least when it gets shut off. If I let the phone bill go, not only I but myContinue reading “Rock, Paper, Scissors”
Help Me Make It Through The Night
Oh yeah, the sleep schedule is unraveling all right, just as summer begins and I continue to lie awake well past midnight, my mind awash in endless torrents of thought. I’m still going to bed by 11:30 every night—well, almost every night—but then I proceed to stare up at the ceiling and try to figure aContinue reading “Help Me Make It Through The Night”
High Anxiety
Well, it’s not really THAT high, but it’s getting there. The past few nights, I’ve been lying awake staring at the ceiling till well past midnight, my brain awash in zillions of thoughts that have no beginning and no end. It’s nothing pathological, just a reaction to the fact that the stress in my life isContinue reading “High Anxiety”
Between A Rock and A Hard Place
Shit. Now the brakes on the car need $300 worth of repairs, and it just so happens that we won’t have that kind of cash for another week and a half, unless I’m incredibly lucky and my unemployment benefits kick in this week. In the meantime, there’s a job in a nearby town that soundsContinue reading “Between A Rock and A Hard Place”
This Is Gonna Sound Weird, But…..
…..my mood and my self-confidence have only improved since I was fired. I don’t know why, but I wonder if it’s not just the feeling of relief now that I don’t have to keep trying to do the impossible. That was harder on my self-esteem than being unemployed, as much as I hate it (toContinue reading “This Is Gonna Sound Weird, But…..”
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