Been A Long Time Gone

Well, I got through it—the second anniversary of my husband’s death. I don’t know why, but it feels in some ways like I’ve lived the longer part of my life since he’s been gone. So much has happened, so many things to learn about myself and my place in this world. I’m still working onContinue reading “Been A Long Time Gone”

Keeping Calm On 4th and Long

Well, it’s been an interesting week. Will has been sick with nausea and vomiting almost since he began a new cancer drug three months ago, and now we’ve thrown low blood sugar into the merry mix. Finally, he reached a crisis point where he became disoriented and even somewhat combative, fell in the driveway, andContinue reading “Keeping Calm On 4th and Long”

The Anniversary Waltz

What a difference a year makes…..fourteen months ago, we weren’t sure if Will and I would make it to our 33rd wedding anniversary, and now here it is late September again and we’re about to celebrate Number 34 tomorrow. It’s amazing how much things change during a long marriage. You start out with honeymoon dreams andContinue reading “The Anniversary Waltz”

Back From The Brink

And just as quickly as my mood plunged, it’s come back up. Today I felt almost normal, despite the fact that nothing has changed for the better (except, perhaps, for our spectacular 97-degree weather…..I love the heat) and we’re going to lose our cable/Internet by Monday. There just isn’t enough money to keep all three utilitiesContinue reading “Back From The Brink”

Could I Have This Dance (For the Rest Of My Life)

At last…..the day we feared might never arrive, the thirty-third anniversary of our wedding day. What a miracle that we’ve made it this far! Ours was a simple hippie wedding, in a public park with nature’s own green trees and flowers as our only decorations. Not that we didn’t observe a few formalities: he andContinue reading “Could I Have This Dance (For the Rest Of My Life)”

Good News!

Will saw our primary care doctor this morning, and he is VERY optimistic about Will’s prognosis for a longer life than we anticipated when we thought the cancer was an ‘adenocarcinoma’. That’s the most common type, and it is a fast killer…..if Will had this kind, we’d more than likely be playing a dirge rightContinue reading “Good News!”

So Long As We Both Shall Live

As the anniversary of our wedding approaches, so always does a time of reflection on what Will and I have accomplished in our time together, and what we hope to accomplish in the years to come. We talk of our children and grandchildren, our family life, our achievements, and of course the love that has sustained us throughout our union. This year,Continue reading “So Long As We Both Shall Live”

For Better, For Worse

I’d be willing to bet that when the original wedding vows were written, they weren’t thinking about how bad “worse” can get. Like putting your finger in a place where no finger should ever have to go in order to relieve your husband of a lower-intestinal obstruction. Like collecting his urine in a jug forContinue reading “For Better, For Worse”