Coming Out Bipolar…..Again

Well, I’ve let the proverbial cat out of the bag with my new landlady, and it’s all good. The revelation came out of a discussion about where I’m at with my application for disability, which is probably somewhere between batches of paperwork. She wasn’t shocked or horrified. She has a friend who is bipolar, soContinue reading “Coming Out Bipolar…..Again”

What Are You Smoking, Doc?

I swear, sometimes I wonder what the hell Dr. Awesomesauce is smoking when we have our sessions. This was a particularly positive visit, not only because not only did Will and I find a place to live and get settled in, but I’m well and, for the most part, reasonably content. OK, maybe I wasContinue reading “What Are You Smoking, Doc?”

DX: Bipolar I

Awhile back, I wrote a post about my frustration with what I considered to be a “wastebasket” diagnosis (bipolar not otherwise specified), wishing Dr. Awesomesauce would pick a number and settle the question for good. I was in bipolar limbo; I remember the Vocational Rehab counselor who asked if I was BP 1 or 2, and trying toContinue reading “DX: Bipolar I”

Long Time Gone

I just realized something: with the exception of a couple of brief hypomanic periods, I haven’t had a real, live, rip-roarin’ manic episode in a year. Seriously. It simply has not happened. Not even during the summer. And it feels like it’s been an eternity since it did. Obviously, I have mixed feelings about it. I know thatContinue reading “Long Time Gone”

Out Of The Blue

I promised you a few posts ago that I’d write one about mood episodes that come out of nowhere, and since I really don’t have a lot to talk about today, here it is. I call them “sneaker waves”—mania or depression that has no identifiable trigger, but which slaps me flat and knocks the wind right out of me.Continue reading “Out Of The Blue”


And now for your edification, here is a discussion about what psychiatry calls “triggers”. For those not in the know, triggers are events, thoughts, emotions etc. that cause or contribute to the development of mood episodes. Sometimes episodes come out of nowhere, and in my experience those are harder to deal with because I don’t knowContinue reading “Trigger-Happy”

Ten Feet Tall and Bulletproof

Did I mention that I miss hypomania? Well, I do. There. I admit it. I hope you’re satisfied. Here I am, sitting here in front of my computer screen being all normal and everything, when what I want in my heart of hearts is a good burst of high energy. There is SO much thatContinue reading “Ten Feet Tall and Bulletproof”

Going “Toucan”

Sheesh, I guess I didn’t need to worry about having enough fodder for blog posts to start off this contest I’ve entered. Today’s appointment with Dr. Awesomesauce was LOADED with material—not all of which needs to be shared, to be sure, but there’s still plenty to talk about. First of all, if I didn’t know it before, I do now:Continue reading “Going “Toucan””

Missing (Hypo)Mania

Yeah, I admit it. After all, there’s a great big beautiful spring out there, with warming temperatures and even more sunshine to come later this week…..the intoxicating aromas of flowers floating on the soft breeze…..the promise of summer just around the corner. This is one of my favorite times of year, when it’s not TOO hotContinue reading “Missing (Hypo)Mania”