SSDI

That’s not a mistake—it’s shorthand for Social Security Disability Insurance. There’s a big difference between SSDI and SSDD (Same Shit, Different Day). Then again, there might not be. I just got done filling out about 20 pages of information about my functional status and all the jobs I’ve held over the past 15 years. They didn’tContinue reading “SSDI”

Scrambled Letters, Scrambled Brain

You know you’re in for a bad night when even your most effective means for shutting down your brain doesn’t work. I have this mental picture I use when I’m having trouble getting my mind off something unpleasant: I visualize a giant stop sign right in front of me and say STOP out loud. It usually works by distracting meContinue reading “Scrambled Letters, Scrambled Brain”

No Experience Necessary

I don’t know about you, but I find perusing the job listings at my friendly local unemployment office to be quite entertaining. Where else could I find “opportunities” like working on an Alaskan fishing boat……becoming a cemetery worker……learning to wire little teeny circuit boards together? Who the hell does that stuff? I worked on anContinue reading “No Experience Necessary”

Is There Life Out There?

Seriously, I’m asking: what can I do besides nursing? Among the many other changes wrought by this long, weird summer is the realization that I can’t do what I used to do. I don’t know if it’s because my bipolar has finally altered my brain to the point that it no longer functions as well as itContinue reading “Is There Life Out There?”