Same S#!+, Different Day

My sleep is getting screwy again. The past four nights I’ve been awake well past midnight with racing thoughts, trying to calm my mind with prayer and meditation and failing utterly. Then I can barely get out of bed in the morning because my brain does not have an OFF switch and my ruminations continue all night, even after IContinue reading “Same S#!+, Different Day”

Hope Springs Eternal

I think by now we’ve all figured out the common theme for the past few days. The proverbial chips have been down for some time, but I’m feeling my optimism rising again even though nothing has changed on the surface. I’m like a robin with one end of a ten-foot earthworm in its beak…..a little nibble keepsContinue reading “Hope Springs Eternal”

Another Ray Of Hope

I’m almost afraid to say this because I might jinx myself, but I could be on a bit of a roll here. While I was surfing Craigslist for jobs last night, I found one that is PERFECT. The position is with the county as a peer support specialist for people in the mental health system. It’s all about advocatingContinue reading “Another Ray Of Hope”

Turning A Corner

The world just tilted on its axis: today, Dr. Awesomesauce broached the subject of disability. I couldn’t believe it. We have had this discussion before, and at that time he insisted that he’d never sign off on a disability claim because he believed I was perfectly capable of working full-time. But even though he still wants me toContinue reading “Turning A Corner”

Hangin’ It Up

My stethoscope, of course. What did you think I meant? I’ve made my decision: I’m done with nursing once and for all. Today I turned down two referrals from the unemployment office for nursing positions at the brand-new veterans’ home over in the next town—a place where I would very much like to work—because I’ve searched myContinue reading “Hangin’ It Up”