I made it. The year of firsts is finally over, and I got through it. The night of the 12th was the hardest, although yesterday was rough too. I cried a lot, lit a candle, and wished all the voice mails I’d saved hadn’t been lost when I got a new phone last weekend. IContinue reading “Sigh of Relief”
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Round And Round
…What goes around, comes around and so on. Or so claimed the song by Ratt, way back in the ’80s when music still made sense. (Well, it did to me. But then again, Will and I were smoking a lot of weed in those days.) Spring has at long last arrived, and with it comes someContinue reading “Round And Round”
Happy Holidays…I Think
As Christmas arrives, I’m definitely struggling to keep up appearances. This is supposed to be the happiest time of the year; it’s not anyone else’s fault that I’m sad. But I did lose it with my son-in-law this afternoon, and cried into his sleeve for what seemed like an hour. Thank Heaven for him, he always seems to beContinue reading “Happy Holidays…I Think”
It’s All Situational
OK, I’ll admit it: I am mildly depressed. As I said in another post, it’s hard to look forward to the holidays when you’ve lost the love of your life. It’s hard to look forward to anything, to be honest. My birthday, his birthday, etc., both of which are coming up soon. And of courseContinue reading “It’s All Situational”
We Are Family
It’s coming up on three months since Will passed, and his absence is still so keenly felt that it takes my breath away sometimes. The enormity of what I have lost is overwhelming; I see all these couples everywhere, and for a moment I often find myself filled with rage that it’s not US anymore…it’s justContinue reading “We Are Family”
Potpourri
My thoughts are all over the map today, so this is going to be one of those posts that meander. Hope you don’t mind. Well, I’m through with the first “first” of a year that’s going to be full of them. Our wedding anniversary was on the 27th, and it was a tough day toContinue reading “Potpourri”
A Year of Firsts
It’s been exactly one month since Will passed away. To say this is a difficult day would be an understatement, but I’m facing a whole bunch of them so this first “anniversary” is only the tip of the iceberg. I’ve been warned about this by other widows. There is an entire year of “firsts” to get through—the firstContinue reading “A Year of Firsts”
Deja Vu All Over Again
As if I needed a reminder of how much my life has changed in the past few years, I got my Medicare card this week. Technically I can’t use it till October, but here it sits on my computer desk in red, white and blue. I was surprised to get it this soon—I thought one had toContinue reading “Deja Vu All Over Again”
Trouble In Paradise
Well, I wouldn’t exactly call my life paradise, but it sure beats anything else I can think of. I’ve got way too much on my plate though. The first week of April is going to be a doozy and I’m already over-amped and anxious. My oldest son is getting married on the 2nd, and whileContinue reading “Trouble In Paradise”
It’s My Party
…and I’ll cry if I want to. Yesterday was my birthday. I’m 57. Late 50s now, and I haven’t the slightest idea how I got here so fast. I’ll be 60 before I turn around twice. My son Ethan literally almost set my birthday cake on fire with all those candles, which provided a brief burst of laughterContinue reading “It’s My Party”
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