Well, here we are…the seven-year anniversary of my first bipolar diagnosis. I remember it as if it was yesterday: the long questioning session with Dr. Awesomesauce, the many reasons he cited as to why I might not be bipolar, and then the surprising diagnosis of bipolar NOS. In retrospect he might have given it toContinue reading “The Seven-Year Itch”
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The Name Game
Well, I’m not quite out of the woods yet, but I’m getting closer to being done with this depression with every day that passes by. I don’t know if it’s due to the new little pill Dr. Goodenough prescribed for me, but it sure isn’t hurting, and each night for the past week when I’veContinue reading “The Name Game”
Loose Lips
…sink ships. Or do they? Had a visit with Dr. Goodenough the other day, and for some reason I got to talking and couldn’t shut up. I mean, I SPILLED. MY. GUTS. I talked about my recent bout of hypomania. I admitted having tried to give myself a “drug holiday” and the chaos that resulted. I discussed myContinue reading “Loose Lips”
Five Years
Today marks the fifth anniversary of my bipolar diagnosis. In some ways it seems like yesterday, while at the same time it’s like it happened half a lifetime ago. I’ll never forget how I felt when Dr. Awesomesauce pronounced the words that changed my life forever. “I’m diagnosing you with bipolar disorder not otherwise specified,” heContinue reading “Five Years”
I’m So Confuuuuuused!
Whoever said “Old age is not for sissies” must have been talking about Medicare insurance plans. Well, I’m not old yet, but I’ve spent the better part of three days trying to figure out the hows and whys of this incredibly complex program. I’ve also been to a meeting in which a caseworker explained theContinue reading “I’m So Confuuuuuused!”
On My Own
I don’t like this widowhood business. There are so many decisions to make. What kind of memorial service to have and how to pay for everything , what to do with Will’s model ships and airplanes, whether to make the funeral open to everyone or keep it private between family and friends. There are also things IContinue reading “On My Own”
Deja Vu All Over Again
As if I needed a reminder of how much my life has changed in the past few years, I got my Medicare card this week. Technically I can’t use it till October, but here it sits on my computer desk in red, white and blue. I was surprised to get it this soon—I thought one had toContinue reading “Deja Vu All Over Again”
Anger Management
I was looking back over some old posts the other day when I realized that I haven’t talked much recently about anger, even though it’s always been a big problem for me. I’ve been called “hot-tempered” for as long as I can remember, and for many years I did my best to live up to the labelContinue reading “Anger Management”
I Want to Go Off My Meds. Somebody Please Talk Me Out of It.
Well, I do. I admit it. I’m tired of taking fistfuls of pills twice a day and I wish I could stop. Just as an experiment, of course…even though the last time I neglected to take my nighttime meds, I experienced the entire bipolar spectrum the next day and it took two more to straighten myself out.Continue reading “I Want to Go Off My Meds. Somebody Please Talk Me Out of It.”
Not Done Yet
Well, I don’t know what tricks Dr. Awesomesauce had up his sleeve, but somehow he got a waiver from some obscure entity that allows him to continue seeing me. I’ve been wondering why I’d been called to come in for a meds check; I thought I was done there at the clinic, had even accepted it and movedContinue reading “Not Done Yet”
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