What I Learned Last Week

Here are a few things I discovered over the course of the past ten days or so. …I learned that I really can be a gracious hostess, even in the middle of hypomania. Two of Will’s brothers and one of his sisters were here, and even though I was waaay overstimulated, I was able to subdue it for the most part andContinue reading “What I Learned Last Week”

Starting Over

Today I met my new psych nurse practitioner, whom I’ll call “Sarah”. She is very nice and enthusiastic about her work, which is a good sign. I’m still not over losing Dr. Awesomesauce, but between her and Kathy I think I’ll be OK eventually. The fly in the ointment is, not only do I needContinue reading “Starting Over”

Even More Things I Wish People Knew About Bipolar Disorder

1. The vast majority of us are non-violent. The media seem to love targeting the mentally ill by insinuating that almost everyone who commits a heinous crime has some sort of psychiatric problem. I’ve ranted on this topic elsewhere in this blog (check out “Bipolar and Off His Meds” if you want to read myContinue reading “Even More Things I Wish People Knew About Bipolar Disorder”

Something To Celebrate

It seems like a weird thing to be happy about, but here it is: my first Social Security check arrived in yesterday’s mail. Approved on the first try, and in the minimum time frame, no less. I guess that bipolar 1 diagnosis and hospitalization, plus my physical issues, were enough to turn the tide inContinue reading “Something To Celebrate”

Surviving Bipolar

It’s been several months now since my brain last attempted to murder me, and with the passage of time the harsh lines that defined that episode and the resulting hospitalization have blurred somewhat. Now I look back and wonder how I could have even THOUGHT about suicide, let alone planned it…..only the method, and whetherContinue reading “Surviving Bipolar”

Another Auld Lang Syne

Like many writers, I’ve decided to indulge in the annual tradition of reminiscing about the year gone past and anticipating the arrival of a new one. It seems the older I get, the faster go the years, and 2014 was no exception. It has not been a good year, to say the least. It began with so many hopesContinue reading “Another Auld Lang Syne”

Stuck In The Middle With You

I realized something today as I was “chatting” with some of my friends on Facebook about yesterday’s blog post. Several of them mentioned that I might still be in a bit of denial about my illness, as I tend to perseverate on the idea of reducing my medications in the face of overwhelming evidence that this isContinue reading “Stuck In The Middle With You”

The Queen of Denial

An online friend of mine named Sarah, who blogs over at bi [polar] curious, once wrote a post called “The Denial Relapse”, about why we BPs tend to be so resistant to accepting the fact of our illness and how we end up in trouble because of that. Every so often I go back and re-read that post, which IContinue reading “The Queen of Denial”