Going The Wrong Way

And to think I was going to ask if I could lower some of my meds… I’m still having trouble with sleep. I don’t think I’m acting out much (although I have been spending too much money lately and can’t account for it), but I have to admit I feel a little fragile from the frequent nightsContinue reading “Going The Wrong Way”

Sh*t Just Got Real: Life On The Inside, Part 2

It was on my second night in the unit that shit got real. I had never fallen this far down the rabbit-hole before, and if I hadn’t been where I was, I probably wouldn’t be here to tell the story. That was when I hit rock-bottom and realized that no matter what I might want toContinue reading “Sh*t Just Got Real: Life On The Inside, Part 2”

Whiskey. Tango. Foxtrot?

Wow, talk about things coming out of left field…..today I was basically accused of being depressed (which I’m not) and “hiding” behind a fake name on Facebook (which I do strictly for privacy reasons). And when I presented facts to the contrary, the person all but said I was lying, thus making me question momentarily whether I really am crazy after all,Continue reading “Whiskey. Tango. Foxtrot?”

I Think The Dog Is Bipolar

No, seriously! Well, OK, I’m half-kidding. I am watching my Pug mix dog,”Zinnie,” bounce off the walls. It’s sunny and warm today, and consequently she is losing her mind. She hates the cold and spends the winter lying around in front of the heater, usually rousing herself only for the briefest of walks and of course, food.Continue reading “I Think The Dog Is Bipolar”

Another “Untitled” Post

I hate it when I pull stupid stunts like forgetting to title a post. Yesterday’s wound up being called ‘953’ because I wrote the thing without coming up with one of my typically catchy headlines first. (OK, you can stop snickering now.) So because I’m not feeling terribly creative, tonight’s post will have a title that’s not a title…..or it won’tContinue reading “Another “Untitled” Post”

I’m Not That Woman Anymore

The other cool thing that happened Friday was stopping by my old workplace to surprise my 22-year-old son and say hello to my former co-workers (and maybe even a resident or two). Now, up until about three months ago, I got palpitations whenever I even thought about going there—hell, just taking the exit gave me the heebie-jeebies—butContinue reading “I’m Not That Woman Anymore”

Stinkin’ Thinkin’

No, no, no, don’t worry, I haven’t done—nor am I about to do—anything crazy. But I’ve got to admit that I have an interesting thought process going on that’s quite seductive…..even though I know it’s 99% bullshit. Hence I call it “stinkin’ thinkin’”. I continue to be amazed by the way a sleep schedule and some motivation seem to have clearedContinue reading “Stinkin’ Thinkin’”

Red Rubber Ball

Tonight’s post title notwithstanding, I am not having a good time bouncing around like the metaphorical spheric plaything. The term mood lability doesn’t even begin to cover it. I just got done weeping over a bittersweet news story about an adopted daughter’s search for her mother, only a couple of hours after Will and IContinue reading “Red Rubber Ball”