I Do Not Like Green Eggs and Ham

or feeling flattened, like I am. In the most literal sense, I’m doing a lot better since I started my new drug “cocktail”. I’m calm, cool, and collected, and I sleep like the dead. I drift through my days feeling neither elated nor depressed, and nothing really bothers me except my disappointment with my job.Continue reading “I Do Not Like Green Eggs and Ham”

Better Living Through Chemistry, Part 2

Ahhh……48 hours on Zyprexa, and I feel like a new woman. Today was the best day I’ve had in weeks. I slept well again, wasn’t nearly as bombed-out as I was yesterday morning, had no trouble staying awake at work—even doing nothing but bookwork—and drove home without screaming profanities at other drivers. I’m calm andContinue reading “Better Living Through Chemistry, Part 2”

Wading Through Peanut Butter

That’s what I’ve felt like all day today……like I was trying to make my way through a river of sludge and getting nowhere. I’d forgotten what a full dose of Zyprexa does to me, especially on top of all the OTHER stuff I take at night. When I got up this morning I felt like a bombContinue reading “Wading Through Peanut Butter”

Z: The Wonder Drug

Well, now THIS is more like it. Aspirin’s got nothing on Zyprexa as a wonder drug: thirty-six hours after taking the first dose, I’m fine. There’s the occasional foot- or finger-tapping, but I realize almost immediately when I’m doing it and can stop. I couldn’t do that even as late as last night. This morning when I woke up, I knewContinue reading “Z: The Wonder Drug”

On My Soapbox: Drug Advertising on TV

OK, I’ve got a complaint and no one to pitch my bitch to…..except you, Constant Reader. I’ve tried writing to the drug companies about their stupid commercials, but I think they all think I’m just another kook with an axe to grind. You see, I have an issue with the peddling of powerful drugs toContinue reading “On My Soapbox: Drug Advertising on TV”

The Wellbutrin Experiment and Other Side Effects

Well, that shoots that theory in the butt—all my thyroid tests came back totally normal. This is good news, because I really didn’t want to have to take yet another pill, but it also buries forever any hope that there might be a medical explanation for my mood swings. Not that it would’ve changed my original diagnosis—I don’tContinue reading “The Wellbutrin Experiment and Other Side Effects”

The *New* New Normal

Oh, happy day—I woke up this morning feeling totally back to normal. I also woke up NOT feeling as though a bomb went off in my head, thanks to having cut my Zyprexa dose in half. Only one more week and I’ll be off entirely. Hurray! Even better, I haven’t put on anywhere near asContinue reading “The *New* New Normal”

The Klonopin Chronicles

Now that the fever of mania has broken and my thoughts are clumping back together again, I can finally take a few calm moments to discuss some of the finer points of the medications that help to keep folks like me from diving out a 14th-story window or spending every single dime they’ll ever makeContinue reading “The Klonopin Chronicles”