It’s coming up on three months since Will passed, and his absence is still so keenly felt that it takes my breath away sometimes. The enormity of what I have lost is overwhelming; I see all these couples everywhere, and for a moment I often find myself filled with rage that it’s not US anymore…it’s justContinue reading “We Are Family”
Category Archives: Bipolar Me
Dr. Goodenough
Yesterday, I had my first visit with my new pdoc, whom I shall call Dr. Goodenough. He reminds me of Mister Rogers—he is warm and kind, and he wears a tie with a cardigan sweater. He’s an older gentleman, so I’m a little worried he’ll retire within a few years; but since he’s new toContinue reading “Dr. Goodenough”
Potpourri
My thoughts are all over the map today, so this is going to be one of those posts that meander. Hope you don’t mind. Well, I’m through with the first “first” of a year that’s going to be full of them. Our wedding anniversary was on the 27th, and it was a tough day toContinue reading “Potpourri”
Football, Weather, Missed Meds, Etc.
I forgot my meds last night. I haven’t done that in over a year, and the last time I did it I experienced the entire bipolar spectrum in one day. This time, I’m kinda numb around the lips and my head is buzzing, but other than feeling a bit on the hypomanic side I’m OK. IContinue reading “Football, Weather, Missed Meds, Etc.”
Till Death Do Us Part
I am so thankful that it’s not a week ago tonight. It was at this time that Will was going through the active dying process, which was way more painful than it should have been and went on too long before he got adequate relief. I can’t blame anyone for it, although I wish theContinue reading “Till Death Do Us Part”
My Will Is Gone
Passed away peacefully at 3:10 AM on July 13, 2016. I was there when he breathed his last, and got to hold his hand one last time as it happened. Obviously I am beyond sad, and I keep thinking I hear his voice and waiting for him to come back into the house after smoking on theContinue reading “My Will Is Gone”
Deja Vu All Over Again
As if I needed a reminder of how much my life has changed in the past few years, I got my Medicare card this week. Technically I can’t use it till October, but here it sits on my computer desk in red, white and blue. I was surprised to get it this soon—I thought one had toContinue reading “Deja Vu All Over Again”
The Other 10%
I read an article on Psych Central awhile back that’s been stuck in the back of my mind for some time. It contained a shocking statistic about marriages in which at least one partner has bipolar disorder: 90% of these unions end in divorce. Ninety percent! That means only one marriage out of ten survives theContinue reading “The Other 10%”
Moving On
As many of you know, I used to live a very different life. I was a successful nurse at the executive level, had the big house in the woods, socialized and juggled multiple balls in the air without much difficulty. As busy as it was, this lifestyle was highly rewarding in many ways, not the leastContinue reading “Moving On”
Anger Management
I was looking back over some old posts the other day when I realized that I haven’t talked much recently about anger, even though it’s always been a big problem for me. I’ve been called “hot-tempered” for as long as I can remember, and for many years I did my best to live up to the labelContinue reading “Anger Management”
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