So I’m on Week 3 of my job search, and yesterday I got slapped upside the head—again—by the realization that no matter how capable I still am, there are some jobs that are not for me. This is not rocket science; everybody has limitations. But I’m still having trouble wrapping my brain around that concept, and if I can’t doContinue reading “Help Wanted”
Category Archives: All Work and No Play
No Experience Necessary
One of the most annoying aspects of job-hunting is having to wade through literally hundreds of listings that have absolutely nothing to do with your field of interest. Though Craigslist and the employment division have conveniently categorized theirs, there are more than a few jobs that slip through the filters. Like this one: “Fun JobContinue reading “No Experience Necessary”
Another One Bites the Dust
The end came quietly this morning in a meeting with my managers, both of whom were genuinely unhappy about having to “release me from my trial service”, as it was so delicately put. It was the nicest firing I’ve ever experienced, and while being unemployed again is scary, my primary emotion is relief. It’s not likeContinue reading “Another One Bites the Dust”
ARRRGGGHHH!!
Ah……I feel better now. Nothing like a little primal scream therapy to get rid of some frustration. Make that a LOT of frustration. I have never in my life sucked so badly at a job (with the possible exception of telephone solicitation, a position I held some thirty years ago…..for about four hours). I’ve beenContinue reading “ARRRGGGHHH!!”
Pep Talk
This has been a great long weekend for me, with lots of good food, fun, and family, along with some wisdom from my favorite psychiatrist and a beautiful Easter Mass to feed my soul. The weather has been good for the most part, and watching my grandsons frolic on the front lawn is always a treat.Continue reading “Pep Talk”
Coming Out Bipolar: The Sequel
Today was “report card” day at work, and my meeting with the managers went just as I expected—they are very understanding and supportive, and they definitely want me to be successful, but I’ve got to get my shit together. So I told them what I told my training instructors the other day. Oddly, they didn’tContinue reading “Coming Out Bipolar: The Sequel”
Coming Out Bipolar
I came out to my instructors this morning. I didn’t have much of a choice. I simply cannot abide being thought of as old and slow, even though my work performance thus far sure makes me look that way. I hadn’t planned on doing it, but given the grim tone of today’s meeting, it was an act of sheerContinue reading “Coming Out Bipolar”
Nobody Knows (The Trouble I’ve Seen)
Oh man, and Job thought he had troubles……. The final day of survey was a disaster. My ego was already pretty bruised from the beating it had been taking all week, and it took almost every bit of courage I own just to push myself out the door this morning. The trainer who came with me today isn’t quiteContinue reading “Nobody Knows (The Trouble I’ve Seen)”
The End Is Near
Well, boys and girls, it looks like I’m going to wash out of my training program after all. It wasn’t put exactly that way by my trainer this afternoon, but I had to be honest with her about the reasons why I’m struggling so badly and she acknowledged that they’re pretty much incompatible with the work. The truthContinue reading “The End Is Near”
Stress Factor
I’m now two weeks into what seems to be a solid recovery. I feel like myself again, warts and all, and as silly as it must sound to anyone who doesn’t deal with a mental illness, that would ordinarily be cause for celebration. The weather is warm and lovely, but there’s no hint of mania; I’mContinue reading “Stress Factor”
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