Help Wanted

So I’m on Week 3 of my job search, and yesterday I got slapped upside the head—again—by the realization that no matter how capable I still am, there are some jobs that are not for me. This is not rocket science; everybody has limitations. But I’m still having trouble wrapping my brain around that concept, and if I can’t doContinue reading “Help Wanted”

No Experience Necessary

One of the most annoying aspects of job-hunting is having to wade through literally hundreds of listings that have absolutely nothing to do with your field of interest. Though Craigslist and the employment division have conveniently categorized theirs, there are more than a few jobs that slip through the filters. Like this one: “Fun JobContinue reading “No Experience Necessary”

Another One Bites the Dust

The end came quietly this morning in a meeting with my managers, both of whom were genuinely unhappy about having to “release me from my trial service”, as it was so delicately put. It was the nicest firing I’ve ever experienced, and while being unemployed again is scary, my primary emotion is relief. It’s not likeContinue reading “Another One Bites the Dust”

Coming Out Bipolar: The Sequel

Today was “report card” day at work, and my meeting with the managers went just as I expected—they are very understanding and supportive, and they definitely want me to be successful, but I’ve got to get my shit together. So I told them what I told my training instructors the other day. Oddly, they didn’tContinue reading “Coming Out Bipolar: The Sequel”

Nobody Knows (The Trouble I’ve Seen)

Oh man, and Job thought he had troubles……. The final day of survey was a disaster. My ego was already pretty bruised from the beating it had been taking all week, and it took almost every bit of courage I own just to push myself out the door this morning. The trainer who came with me today isn’t quiteContinue reading “Nobody Knows (The Trouble I’ve Seen)”

The End Is Near

Well, boys and girls, it looks like I’m going to wash out of my training program after all. It wasn’t put exactly that way by my trainer this afternoon, but I had to be honest with her about the reasons why I’m struggling so badly and she acknowledged that they’re pretty much incompatible with the work. The truthContinue reading “The End Is Near”