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Hello ~ I’m a sixtysomething retired nurse and writer who also happens to suffer from a nasty little mental illness called Bipolar 1 Disorder. Actually, I don’t always suffer; in fact, some parts of it are pretty cool… when I get a lot of energy and stay up half the night writing heavily metaphorical essays on life, love, sex, death, and other matters of consequence. And every day is FABULOUS and I love EVERYBODY IN THE WORLD and everything I see is MAGNIFICENT!!

When I’m not soaring, drowning, or otherwise battling BP, I enjoy the company of my family and the five fur-kids who rule us all. My late husband and I have four beautiful grown children and six even more beautiful grandchildren. In my “spare time”, I’m a site guide for the world’s largest nursing forum and a moderator at a San Diego Chargers fan website. However, my priorities are God, family, and working to reduce the stigma of mental illness. It is my hope that in some small way, this blog will help the cause along.

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  1. Kelly permalink
    June 9, 2013 2:01 am

    I am so blessed to have found your blog. I am coping with having been diagnosed recently with Bipolar and Borderline Personality Disorder, and it is so nice to see that I am not alone in all of this.

    Liked by 1 person

    • June 9, 2013 4:48 am

      Thank you, Kelly. I’m here not only as a bipolar patient, but as an educator and advocate for other people with mental illness. You are most definitely not alone in this…..your struggles are mine as well as countless others. =)

      Liked by 1 person

  2. June 14, 2013 2:33 am

    This is the most wonderful blog I ever read, thanks for this.

    Liked by 1 person

  3. September 26, 2013 10:07 am

    Hello fellow blogger!
    I have nominated you for a Liebster Award. Your mission, should you choose to accept it, is to read the nomination post (link below) and share the love. I was really chuffed to be nominated and have had great fun answering my nominator’s questions and compiling questions for nominees.

    Congratulations, and keep up the good work!

    Now, if you are so inclined, click here:

    Liked by 1 person

  4. December 24, 2013 1:51 am

    I’m so psyched to find YOUR blog. ๐Ÿ™‚ This is awesome. Thanks for checking out mine on psych central. ๐Ÿ™‚ I’m going to carve out some time after Christmas to read yours thoroughly. Have a great holiday season. -Sarah

    Liked by 1 person

    • December 24, 2013 5:05 am

      Hi Sarah, and thanks for the visit! Hope you enjoy the holidays as well. ๐Ÿ˜‰


  5. WEWILLSHINE permalink
    February 26, 2014 8:09 am

    I would love to follow you,as i have a fb secret group to help members feel their feelings and be understood.

    Liked by 1 person

  6. March 21, 2014 4:22 pm

    You might also want to check out my other WordPress blog, Bipolar Me. (In addition to Et Cetera, etc.)

    Liked by 1 person

  7. One Blue Sky permalink
    June 15, 2014 6:20 pm

    Your blog is so great ๐Ÿ™‚ am really glad I’ve found you. Thanks for taking the time to like my posts. Much appreciated.

    Liked by 1 person

  8. June 29, 2014 1:48 am

    It was nice to find your blog. I am also a nurse who has mental illness (bipolar, ptsd, and borderline personality). I am not working though, and unfortunately actually only obtained a job for a short time after I graduated in 2011. So I am on disability now. But I am still passionate about helping others. My mental illness just prevents me from committing to things and I get overwhelmed so easily. I am glad I found your blog though, cause sometimes I feel so alone as people often tell me – “Oh you have a degree, your a nurse, you shouldn’t be depressed…” etc etc etc. As if mental illness cant affect someone with a nursing degree or something. Glad to know I am not alone… not that I want you to have to deal with it, but it just helps to know I am not alone.

    Liked by 1 person

    • June 29, 2014 2:59 am

      I have found that some of the people who are most judgmental about mental illness are healthcare professionals. It’s a crying shame…’d think that they would understand, but they don’t and they don’t WANT to. I’m a site guide at, the world’s largest nursing website, and I’ve spent a good portion of the past two years educating nurses and students on mental disorders and what it’s like to live with them. It’s opened a lot of eyes there on the site, but overall nurses and doctors are quite prejudiced. I don’t blame you for not continuing with nursing; it IS hard to commit to things when you’re bipolar (I’ve held 3 jobs just in the past 4 years) and the difficulty of the work will chew you up and spit you out if you’re easily overwhelmed. Thank you for the comments and the follow. ๐Ÿ™‚


  9. amy permalink
    August 8, 2014 10:16 pm

    So glad to have found this blog. A lot of my struggle has been trying to connect with others who are bp or bp II. It is comforting to get another’s perspective. Thank you for sharing.

    Liked by 1 person

    • August 8, 2014 11:03 pm

      And thank you for commenting! I’m glad you’re enjoying this blog and that it’s helping you. God bless. ๐Ÿ™‚


  10. Silence Shattered permalink
    August 17, 2014 11:44 pm

    Hey! Iโ€™m not sure what your policy is on awards, but I think you deserve the recognition so Iโ€™ve nominated you for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award! =]
    There is no pressure to accept, participate, or follow the rules exactly.
    If you are interested, you can check it out here:

    Liked by 1 person

    • August 18, 2014 12:35 am

      Thank you! I appreciate your kind thoughts in nominating me for this award. ๐Ÿ™‚


  11. kbailey374 permalink
    August 17, 2014 11:56 pm

    congratulations BP!

    Liked by 1 person

  12. Lois Caniglia RN permalink
    August 20, 2014 3:56 am

    What a relief! That you’re not only a fellow RN but, diagnosed in our 50’s+. What are the chances? I have wrung out my sponge and absorb what wonders you have achieved to date.

    Liked by 1 person

    • August 20, 2014 4:02 am

      You too? I’ve had symptoms for most if not all my life, but I thought it was just me being different, difficult, quirky, and obnoxious! Thanks for visiting my blog, I’m glad you enjoy it and hope you’ll come back for more. ๐Ÿ™‚


  13. June 26, 2015 4:22 am

    I love your priorities! Good luck and God bless you!

    Liked by 1 person

  14. Just Plain Ol' Vic permalink
    July 8, 2015 1:33 am

    I am glad I got connected to your blog through another blogger! I look forward to reading more and perhaps educating myself more about my wife’s bi-polar disorder!

    Liked by 1 person

    • July 8, 2015 1:40 am

      Thank you for the follow! Your wife is a lucky woman to have you by her side. You have a good blog too… Your love and concern for your wife is obvious. Keep on learning!

      Liked by 1 person

      • Just Plain Ol' Vic permalink
        July 8, 2015 2:01 am

        Thanks for your vote of confidence about my blog, it is greatly appreciated! Always learning…so much to learn!!

        Liked by 1 person

  15. August 28, 2016 8:23 am

    I found your blog from a link on My Spanglish Familia. I enjoy what I’ve read and look forward to reading more.

    Liked by 1 person

  16. June 28, 2017 11:23 am

    Hi bpnurse,

    My name is Anuj Agarwal. I’m Founder of Feedspot.

    I would like to personally congratulate you as your blog bpnurse | I Hate Being Bipolar. It’s AWESOME! has been selected by our panelist as one of the Top 100 Bipolar Disorder Blogs on the web.

    I personally give you a high-five and want to thank you for your contribution to this world. This is the most comprehensive list of Top 100 Bipolar Disorder Blogs on the internet and Iโ€™m honored to have you as part of this!

    Also, you have the honor of displaying the badge on your blog.


    Liked by 1 person

  17. Katie permalink
    October 16, 2017 10:36 am

    Your blog makes me feel not so alone.
    I am Bipolar 1 with several other sprinklings of comorbidity, & I was a nursing student up until a month ago.
    I had to leave due to severe depressive symptoms and a car accident suicide attempt. Iโ€™m trying so hard to live, as itโ€™s clear that God doesnโ€™t want me to leave yet.
    I still have an absolute passion for nursing, & hope I can find my way back to it.

    Liked by 1 person

    • October 16, 2017 7:59 pm

      Hi Katie, and welcome to bpnurse! I’m so sorry your schooling has been cut short for the time being, but things will get better…you can count on it. I’m glad you know that suicide is not the answer and that God wants you to stay here, that’s half the battle right there. Hugs!


  18. Gray It On Me permalink
    June 6, 2018 11:36 pm

    Hi. I donโ€™t know if this is appropriate because ASD neurodivergent here! I recently saw a comment you made on a psych board concerning using Zyprexa as a PRN. Clearly desperate, just wondering if youโ€™d be willing to talk to me more about your experience. Thanks so much.

    Hi there. I use Zyprexa as a scheduled med, not as a PRN unless my pdoc tells me to increase it temporarily because Iโ€™m manic. You can PM me at Psych Central if you like and Iโ€™ll be happy to help if I can.

    Liked by 1 person

    • June 7, 2018 3:45 am

      Hi there. I use Zyprexa as a scheduled med, not as a PRN unless my pdoc tells me to increase it temporarily because Iโ€™m manic. You can PM me at Psych Central if you like and Iโ€™ll be happy to help if I can.


      • Gray It On Me permalink
        June 9, 2018 12:53 am

        I canโ€™t PM you on the forum, I hadnโ€™t been on in awhile and forgot my username ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ It says I have to make five posts before I can chat? Argh!

        Liked by 1 person

  19. joel blain permalink
    June 25, 2019 7:33 am

    bpnurse, may I contact you privately? a matter of the utmost importance!!


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