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Even More Things I Wish People Knew About Bipolar Disorder

July 18, 2015

1. The vast majority of us are non-violent. The media seem to love targeting the mentally ill by insinuating that almost everyone who commits a heinous crime has some sort of psychiatric problem. I’ve ranted on this topic elsewhere in this blog (check out “Bipolar and Off His Meds” if you want to read my thoughts on the subject) and it just galls me that sensationalism continues to trump common sense. After all, there are well-known studies that show we are far more likely to be the VICTIMS of violent crime than the perpetrators. And besides that…we’re just like everybody else in that all we want is to live our lives in as normal and happy a fashion as possible. We’re not out to steal your stuff and murder you in your sleep.

2.  Many of us hold down jobs and function as well as the next person. At least as long as we’re being treated and following our prescribed routines. Some people do fine even without medications, and you’d never know they had a problem if they choose to keep their condition private. I have learned to my sorrow that disclosure in the workplace is usually a bad idea, even though it was the only thing I could do at the time because I could no longer hide my illness. Employers tend not to be very understanding of mental health problems. I have also learned that the Americans with Disabilities Act is largely a feel-good piece of legislation that has little clout in the real world. The ADA did not save me from being fired—twice—nor did it force my employers to make reasonable accommodations for me due to my disability. Businesses have offices full of lawyers who know a thousand ways around the ADA, and you can bet those lawyers aren’t shopping at Walmart.

That being said, there are many, many people out there who are working steadily and succeeding in life despite having a mental illness. I wish I were one of them. I have to remind myself that I was reasonably high-functioning for many years before I was diagnosed, kept at it after I was diagnosed, and continued to work even after it became obvious that I was getting worse, not better.

3. We can’t just “snap out of it”. Don’t people know that if we COULD just put our depression on a shelf and move on, we would? Nobody enjoys drowning in a sea of despair, let alone feeling as though the world would be a better place without us in it. Please, if you love a person who struggles with a mental illness, never say that to them. It only adds guilt, and we already carry around enough of that as it is.

4. We put up with a lot of indignities in order to try to fit in. As I type this, I can’t help noticing (for the thousandth time) the tremors in my hands. It’s a side effect of taking two anti-psychotic medications as mood stabilizers. I hate it that I have trouble eating vegetables with a fork—I shake so much that most of them fall off before I can get them to my mouth—so I don’t eat a lot of things in public that require fine motor skills.

I also hate it when I have to go to a new medical provider who can see my record, which has Bipolar 1 disorder splashed all over it in bold print, before I ever take a seat in the waiting room. I’ve been a provider myself, and I know what I thought whenever I was about to receive a new patient with a psychiatric diagnosis. Overcoming whatever pre-conceived notions they may have about me is Job One; fortunately, I have become very good at it and when they find out I’m really not crazy, we get along great. It’s just the necessity of doing it in the first place that grates on me.  (For the record, the same can be said for obese people, who are the next-to-last population that can be judged, made fun of, and generally discriminated against. Lucky me, I get to fight that battle too.)

So there you have it. I’m sure I’ve got a few more of these things up my sleeve, but I think you all get the point. Being bipolar—being mentally ill, period—is a clusterf##k and I think the people who handle it well are amazing. It’s like being in a race where we have to start a lap behind everyone else, and nobody notices what a miracle it is when we manage to keep up…it’s only when we stumble and fall that we draw attention to ourselves.

Thanks for reading. 🙂

 

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  1. July 18, 2015 7:45 am

    You bring up a very powerful point when mentioning pre-conceived notions of health care professionals. Please share how you overcome these! I’m just beginning down the long road of mental health, and I’d really like to know how to make my journey easier.

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    • July 18, 2015 4:35 pm

      Basically I just present myself in good clothes, have a little makeup on, and speak intelligently. It’s not hard to do as long as I’m stable; it costs more effort when I’m not but I’m usually able to pull it off. That’s really all there is to it. 🙂

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      • July 19, 2015 7:00 am

        Hm! Ok. Well, I don’t wear makeup at all, and I’m having a damned hard time NOT crying when I finally talk to someone. Maybe it’s just down to a pre-appointment internal pep talk to myself: if I can envision myself remaining calm I’ve got a better chance doing it. Thanks for sharing!

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      • MrKnowBody permalink
        July 19, 2015 11:42 pm

        thank you for sharing all of this….I always think that my very best learning comes from the people with the conditions that I am trying to treat. Thanks for being so honest, you are helping other people with your condition in more ways than you know

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      • July 20, 2015 12:16 am

        Thank you!

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  2. July 18, 2015 11:08 am

    Wonderful!

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Just Plain Ol' Vic permalink
    July 18, 2015 2:29 pm

    Reblogged this on Just Plain Ol' Vic and commented:
    bpnurse has some more great insights into bi-polar disorder. Only through education and communication can we reduce the stigma.

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  4. July 18, 2015 4:22 pm

    Perfectly stated. Although it’s my husband that has the diagnosis, I feel the insult each time I see and hear a medical provider provide sleight of hand simply because they don’t want to consider his other medications. The number of physical ailments that have come about as a result of being on too many medications have resulted in an assault on his body.

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    • July 18, 2015 6:17 pm

      I know how that goes. In addition to my five psych meds, I’m on medication for high blood pressure, diabetes, asthma and vitamin D deficiency. I am what is known to medical providers as a “train wreck”. But I keep perking along and doing the best I can to live a happy life. 🙂

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  5. July 18, 2015 6:53 pm

    Reblogged this on Bipolar First Bipolar Together and commented:
    Yeah bpnurse! This is a great one.

    This statement is perfect.

    “It’s like being in a race where we have to start a lap behind everyone else, and nobody notices what a miracle it is when we manage to keep up…it’s only when we stumble and fall that we draw attention to ourselves.”

    It is SO true!.

    You know I love me a good metaphor 🙂

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  6. July 18, 2015 9:51 pm

    Well put. Thank you.

    Liked by 1 person

  7. July 18, 2015 10:41 pm

    Awesome post! It’s frustrating how deeply these preconceived notions are embedded in people, even me. Suffering from Bipolar or any mental illness is difficult but add onto that the stigma that’s so prevalent in society today- it’s overwhelming. It’s really heartening to see so many people speaking out about mental illness.The more voices that are added to this cause means less people will be able to tune us out. Let’s not whisper but shout! Thumbs up for unintentional rhyming, lol.

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  8. July 19, 2015 6:34 pm

    Beyond the fact that many bipolar people are working, some are incredibly productive and responsible for some very successful startups in the Silicon Valley. I can’t tell you how many of the biggest names in software developed key products as the result of intense short periods of great productivity. Bipolar is not as useful in jobs requiring consistency…

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    • July 20, 2015 2:01 am

      It sure wasn’t useful in any of my jobs as a nurse. Especially not the management positions. I’m just glad I don’t have to try to fake it anymore!

      Like

  9. July 19, 2015 8:59 pm

    I shared this on Facebook and on Twitter. I am saving it to share on my blog soon. “Love and hugs, Sarah

    Liked by 1 person

  10. July 21, 2015 6:51 pm

    You know what I struggle with? Little teacups. I have been to several of those fancy teas where everything is tiny. For my last one, I thought “to hell with it” and brought my own mug. How is the hubby feeling? In my prayers everyday.

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    • July 21, 2015 8:56 pm

      He is doing all right. Feels better than his liver indicates, and his liver function tests are good. Go figure! Thank you for your prayers…everything helps. 🙂

      Like

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