Law and Order

Being out of work for over a month now, I fear I’ve slipped into some bad habits, even though I’m still looking for a job and making the rounds of interviews when I can get them. One of those habits is watching way too much television, which is something I didn’t do when I was younger but seems to have become the order of the day. Will is my partner in crime—he’s always watched a lot of TV—and for some reason, we seem to have settled on endless reruns of Law and Order SVU. 

The USA channel features an eight-hour marathon every weekday, and since we don’t like talk shows or give two shits about the Kardashians, a few daily doses of Stabler and Benson really hit the spot. And even though the stories are fictional, the show is a great reminder of the fact that no matter how badly things might suck at a given moment, there’s always someone out there who’s got it worse.

I’ve got to admit it: I think my chances of finding a job are really being harmed by the fact that I’ve had three jobs just in the past year. I’ve been a hiring manager myself, and when I was handed a resume that showed an applicant had bounced around a lot, I didn’t even interview that person. They might have turned out to be terrific employees, but I didn’t really care what their story was—there were always better candidates available, and those were the ones who got interviews.

Don’t worry, I’m not giving up hope. Not by a long shot. But I’m rapidly running out of opportunities to do something I know and can handle, so I may have to set my sights a bit lower for the time being. Who knows, maybe it IS time to try something completely new and different…..maybe this is God’s way of telling me to go simple because it’s what I need to do to stay well.

I have a doctor who might disagree with that view. He thinks I sell myself short, whereas I think I’m merely being realistic. But regardless of whom is right, I still have two big strikes against me: I’m not getting any younger, and I have this spotty work history. And I can’t do anything about either one of them.

In the meantime, I’m putting out feelers all over the place, staying positive, and resisting the urge to taper the Zyprexa sooner rather than later. With all the stress going on in my life, this is probably NOT the best time to mess with my meds. So if any of my friends are reading this, thanks for talking me out of it!

Oh, cool, another episode of L & O is coming on. I think it’s the one where Carol Burnett plays a Black Widow. 🙂



Published by bpnurse

I'm a retired registered nurse and writer who also happens to be street-rat crazy, if the DSM-IV.....oops, 5---is to be believed. I was diagnosed with bipolar I disorder at the age of 55, and am still sorting through the ashes of the flaming garbage pile that my life had become. Here, I'll share the lumps and bumps of a late-life journey toward sanity.... along with some rants, gripes, sour grapes and good old-fashioned whining from time to time. It's not easy being bipolar in a unipolar world; let's figure it out together.

2 thoughts on “Law and Order

  1. When I submit my resume/job history, I omit the really short ones. And if asked about the holes, I just say “family issues.” Of which you have plenty. You don’t have to mention that some of these issues are your own! 😉

    And Law and Order is the bomb!


    1. I’ve been thinking about that. And I do put “family issues” as a reason for taking medical leave at my ALF job last year. I mean, what am I gonna say—“Oh yeah, I had a bipolar meltdown”? Haha!!


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