Now, don’t anybody get me wrong, I’m not THAT hypo, but I’ve had a really good day today. I had a good day yesterday too……two in a row simply boggles my little mind!
I had a rather important meeting this afternoon which went far better than I’d thought it would, and I’m really jazzed about that because it proves to me that this old girl has still got it—maybe not as flashy, maybe not as energetic as when I was younger, but as confident as I’ve ever had any right to be. The people I was seeing were friendly, but by the time I left there was a palpable, positive energy in the room that I had to give myself at least part of the credit for. I was relaxed, I was excited…..and that meeting was MINE.
Which brings up the other really, really cool thing that happened today. After six months of getting palpitations every time I even THOUGHT of the place, I decided to visit my son at the scene of my crushing humiliation and what I believed to be the end of my career back in May. I walked back into that building with my head high, looking as good as it’s possible for an almost-55-year-old fat granny to look, and when I left two hours later, I was literally rumpled from all the hugs…….the biggest one from my former boss.
I did it. I faced down my anger, my fear, my disappointment…..all of it. And by gum, I WON!!! Six months of feeling incomplete and looking down on myself for failing yet again, all of it now but a memory. I have closure. I’ve finally exorcised those demons, and found out that I’m bigger—and better—than they are.
Just thought you’d like to know. 😉