The Calm Before the Storm

This is essentially a post about nothing…….blessed, wonderful nothing.

There’s really not much going on today. I’ve got to leave for work in about an hour, and several of the kids plus families will be here later today; but otherwise, we’re carrying on about our lives pretty much as we always have, with little thought of what lies ahead.

A certain relative of mine, as always, can be counted upon to deflect the attention to herself. She’s over there in the assisted living facility, hating it, while her cell phone is on the fritz and she has no cable TV. I can’t blame her for being bored and upset, but I’m still reeling from the worst shock of my entire life and all she can talk about is how miserable she is. She said “I know you don’t need me now, but there’s going to come a time when you’ll wish I was there.”

Sheesh, how about throwing in a little guilt with my serving of shitty luck? I love her to death, and she’s been a source of great wisdom and strength for me during many of my crises; but if I had to try to take care of her endless needs now, I’d lose my freaking mind.

But that’s nothing unusual. Nor is the fact that my older son is being his erratic self and dragging all of his in-laws down to my house sometime today…..unless he changes his mind. Meanwhile, my younger son is on his way to California to wed his partner, which makes marriage number five that my kids have had and I didn’t get to witness any of them.

Still, I’m thrilled for them both and pray their union will be a long and happy one, in spite of the prejudice and discrimination they face as gay men. As far as I’m concerned, they are just as much a couple as any other, and I adore my son-in-law-to-be……he’s good to my son and treats the rest of us like gold, so that makes him very much OK in my book.

Meanwhile, the sun is warm, the dog is barking at birds on the lawn, and Will is fixing my lunch just like always. In other words, this is a day like any of thousands we’ve spent in our long marriage, only now I no longer take them for granted. After all, this is the calm before the storm………and knowing that makes days like today that much sweeter.




Published by bpnurse

I'm a retired registered nurse and writer who also happens to be street-rat crazy, if the DSM-IV.....oops, 5---is to be believed. I was diagnosed with bipolar I disorder at the age of 55, and am still sorting through the ashes of the flaming garbage pile that my life had become. Here, I'll share the lumps and bumps of a late-life journey toward sanity.... along with some rants, gripes, sour grapes and good old-fashioned whining from time to time. It's not easy being bipolar in a unipolar world; let's figure it out together.

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