……which is to say, I originally started this blog as a dialogue on bipolar disorder, and it’s turned into a different animal entirely due to the changing circumstances in which I find myself these days. But not to worry, here’s a word from our sponsor:
Hmm. It would seem that my BP is a little quiet today. As it’s been for oh, I don’t know, maybe a couple of weeks?
I honestly don’t know what I’d do if I had to battle bipolar on top of everything else that’s happening. But I’ve almost always been fortunate in that whatever issue I’m dealing with at a given time, seems to go into hibernation when another serious problem arises. It’s like having a headache and then dropping a can of tomatoes on your bare toes: now you don’t care about the headache—your toes are throbbing, and you’re pissed off.
That’s why I feel almost like someone who’s never even heard the word bipolar, let alone been diagnosed with it and fought it tooth and nail for the past year and a half. In fact, the only time I think of it at all is when I swallow my pills each morning and night, because I’m not reacting to events by crashing into a depressive episode (although I am feeling rather blue under the circumstances) or flipping into mania. I’m just reacting to distressing events like anyone else would………and that in itself is a blessing.